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i feel like crying but nothing is coming out. i keep giving people chances that they really dont deserve. i just dont understand why someone would waste their time investing in something that they are not going to commit too. i feel like im just the friend that people use and im just suppose to pretend to be happy and have all the answers but when they dont need me , they dont bother. i think its rather fucked up and im sick of it.

i saw him today. and my heart jumps everytime i make contact with him. hes the only one i will ever let myself really cry over and really forgive . all the other ones dont matter. your first cut is the deepest . you will never forget it  . atleast he had the decency to stay around for me to cope and then i ruined it by being a bitch.