Dont You Know Tricks Are For Kids ?

i have a serious case of writers block and a sadness i cant seem to cure . i keep giving , giving, giving, and im not GETTING anything in return . i wanna curl up into a ball and disappear. recently i keep pondering the thought of never meeting you . i wish and i wish and i wish and pray to god that i can erase your memory from my mind . i love you so much i hate you . i want to be your everything and i cant and it hurts . i want to be the one you call , the one you text , the one you think about all the time . i wish you didnt talk to me the way you do , or treat me the way you do . i wish you didnt make me cry and make me upset . but i can not just keep on fucking wishing . 

"Three pennies and a ball o' lint, kiiiddd. "